Loving each Other...

Anyone that knows me...and I mean really knows me, knows the love I have for Rob. In many ways he really is my night in shining armor. He knows all of my secrets, all of my past indiscresions, all of my hurt, all of my fears, and I am grateful everyday that he chooses to love me...not despite these things, but because of them.

Don't get me wrong...he still has the ability to drive me right round...however, he is without question, my best friend.

I was talking with one of my sisters yesterday and realized that I am not a great sister. I would like to think I am....but I am not the sister I want to be. I want to be the sister that all of my sisters can count on no matter what is going on....the sister that is always there, unconditionally....I will be trying very hard daily to accomplish this....I will falter, but I will try. You have my words sisters of mine...I am here for you all, no matter what.

4 years ago, I gave birth to an amazing wee gurlie....but it was also the beginning of having to face all of my fears and insecurities....I had suffered from undiagnosed mental illness, more specifically depression. I know looking back, that this has always been a part of my life...all of the choices I have made...the reactions to things....the blame.

Rob let me be weak...he allowed me to feel safe and vulnerable...and I am a healthy person today because of his love and belief in me. Every day I take medication...and the days I may forget its noticeable...sometimes I need more....but no matter what, I do need it...and I am not nor will I ever be ashamed for being healthy...thank you babe, I love you xo